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Tuesday, 10 August 2021

Bijoyini Maya, ShortStory 2021 Longlist

If Loki Came Disguised as Maid…

It takes something more than intelligence to act intelligently.
-Fyodor Dostoevsky-


Banu was a maid in Rourkela, a steel township in India. She had landed in Mrs. Braganza’s house by her wheel of fortune turning in the right direction. Here, she satiated her tummy with ghee (clarified butter) and rice every day and enjoyed the air conditioner. Basically, she was more than happy to leave her shelter near a coalmine along with a family full of responsibilities.

Mrs. Braganza was a teacher by profession and had thought twice about child labour laws before concluding that both can help each other with their skills. She had no clue of Banu’s disposition or age. In Indian villages it is common to forget one’s year of birth. Unlike metropolitan cities, nobody checks Aadhar identity proof while appointing maids in middle class towns.

A fourteen-year-old Banu began to be pampered by the teacher as a ten-year-old girl. The latter took pride in having given protection to a girl child in need. Banu’s eyes began to glisten with her first success in motives. Mrs. Braganza had only one child, her daughter Rudrani. This moody artist was Banu’s obstacle in achieving her goals.

Rudrani lived in Mumbai and tried to make ends meet. The few days she came home it was becoming terrible for Banu to fulfil her wicked wishes. A constant vigil allowed Banu no access to the teacher’s phone, her innumerable boyfriends, cosmetics, and all other comforts that she had begun to assume is her bequest in the house. Mrs. Braganza lived with her sisters who needed Banu’s daily help more than herself. They saw the exploitation and chose to be blind.

Mrs. Braganza would come back from work and holler at Banu for all the unfinished work. Banu would then sit for an hour with a puppy dog face, act sissy before sitting with a plateful of rice, fish, pulses, ghee, and vegetables to eat. The disruption in this routine occurred when Rudrani visited home. She would inform her mother of the little mischievous things Banu did during the day, which did not allow the latter to get back to normalcy. Banu had chalked out her work schedule the first day she arrived at the teacher’s place.

She came to eat, sleep, and get a taste of men. The best way to achieve that was to go to the market so slowly that the teacher finishes most of the household work (a workaholic by nature), answer every call of Mrs. Braganza’s sisters and complain how she could not finish any work because they kept her occupied. She was successful in all her endeavours. There would be rifts between Mrs. Braganza and her sisters. Only Banu’s negative aura remained close to the teacher alienating an educated woman from logic and the world.

Banu laughed at all those who thought it is unfortunate to be uneducated. When Rudrani tried to tell her mother of this evil spark inside Banu, her mother rebuked the former for being distrustful of a little girl (the age deception is all where it began). Unaware of movies like Omen 1, 2, or 3, Mrs. Braganza was blissful. Banu took her first leap of faith. A brand new pair of slippers vanished the next time she went home. Rudrani was not kind about things lost and misplaced. For a week fake search mission was launched and Banu began to blame the sweeper for stealing. A new sweeper was hired. Banu’s word was oracle for Mrs. Braganza, and her two sisters by then. After two weeks she smirked at Rudrani, “I told you they trust me more than you.”

By then Banu’s sister had started using the expensive stolen pair of slippers at home. The teacher had given Banu a basic Nokia phone. When unknown numbers began calling at odd times, Banu had to surrender the phone. Within twenty-four hours of surrendering, the phone went missing. Exhausted Rudrani, after her spring exhibition, sensed devilish vibes during her meditation at home. She told her mother to check Banu’s things where the phone was found. Prior to Mrs. Braganza bringing up this matter, the next morning Banu left with one of her lovers while the teacher was still sleeping.

Mrs. Braganza worried about a little red riding Banu lost in the dark woods, ran to the police station for help. She had checked with her neighbourhood grocer, vegetable seller, and tea-stall owner before that. As in any part of India, the police blamed Banu because she is a girl. This incident shook the environs and silenced dogs for few days. Next day Banu’s mother brought her Aadhar card to police station for verification. For the first time the teacher laid her eyes on any such government document of Banu.

Her eyes could not move beyond the DOB section. Recently Banu had gone home to get her Aadhar card updated. It took the teacher few seconds to calculate Banu had turned 21 that summer. She sat down on the chair with a plonk sound, while Banu’s mother told the police how people in the village teased her daughter and called Banu a dwarf. Her rambling continued about their jealousy as soon as Banu came to live with Mrs. Braganza.

Quietly, the teacher went back home and narrated the incident to Rudrani over phone. Later in the midnight, officials called to tell the teacher that Banu had reached home safe. Banu’s mother thought to herself, “That lady has always forgiven my daughter and needs company in that massive house.” She called Mrs. Braganza. The teacher uttered what she never imagined herself capable of stating, “I was about to call you. Take all Banu’s things as soon as you can. I do not want to see her face or the police station; unpleasant sights” and hung up.

Have you ever hired a maid and treated them as your own child? Did you feel guilty later for treating her/him like one rather than maintaining professional distance? Society will judge you based on their age, and newspapers will love to sell articles on child labour without any practical experience of child’s psychology or physical toil of privileged child labours. TRP hangs on words like “depression of a teenager maid,” “minor’s plight in modern India,” “torturous negligent employees,” but human reality is Amazon rainforest wildfire (hushed and fatal). No TRP (only fear), no news (suppression of building fear), no gossip (horizons of right and wrong meeting). One burning question to every unawakened mind — Who is to be blamed?

Monday, 25 September 2017

Poetry 2017 Shortlist Bijoyini Maya


To You or Not To You...

Plunged...soaked... “Hello stranger”
(Honey I am home)... are you?
Thou mind is a wanderer... home is nihilism
Parched throat from a riverbed.
Did you know Veronica decided to die?
(I was just wondering would you like lemonade or tea?)
My mind is screaming like your laughter
(This news rang in my head all noon... read?)
Your gestures were pinning on to my mind
(Yet to read, biscuits or chops with tea?)
(Today was a wonderful busy day)
With her around, your desires come alive, don't they?
(Oh is it... what did you do?)
(Too many deadlines... did the plumber come?)
Yes and he couldn't fix my mind, so vent his anger on the pipe
(You will be happy to know all taps are fixed... get some rest)
While I devise my disappearing act
(Glad... what’s cooking for dinner?)
Wish I could cook you if I didn’t love you so much
(The usual... your favourites...)
(You make my life!)
And you fill the bed with deathly shadows of unknown women.
Saw a whale yesterday and crooned the baby whale...
(Will take a short nap)
(Do that)
Had heard somewhere... “If you believe
in love at first sight you never stop looking.”

Friday, 15 September 2017

Short Story 2017, Featured Writer, Bijoyini Maya

500 Days of Spring

Eight years they say.... after eight long years the stars have conspired yet again. Eight years have passed and the previous pain hasn’t dulled nor have I sort any medicine to cure it. Does that tell you anything about me? That explains why is falling in love so easy? You keep thinking the world is full of evil and then- you stumble across a gem of a person... just like that!! And where?? Inside an enclosed claustrophobic train compartment. The worst part being from an extremely cautious mistrusting alert woman you let your guards down and become the sweetest fool you could have imagined existing in this world. And days later you feel like punching all of them who lectured you on positivity and begged you to trust others. Every time I trust – does not matter the man is a saint or Satan– this is what I get! A bucketful of tears and my heart broken numerous times, forgotten its metaphorical shape!

Why do we not think of the biological shape of our heart? Or how would our brain respond to any such emotion? How do I still stop it (taking for granted, the heart rules) from loving someone – worthy, unworthy, loser, gainer, wonderful, obnoxious person. No, I do not try anymore. I do not believe nobody can break it further or more worse than myself. So here I am, pining over just one text that you might not send me in the whole day. As if my life depended on that one message that conveys you are fine and enjoying yourself wherever you are... with whomever. Why on earth wouldn’t you be fine!? If you are not, there are enough living organisms to make sure you do. Moreover, you would never tell me if you aren’t doing well!! Who am I?? All this for a thirty two hours journey! Why are my train trips so expensive?? 

It ends up costing me more than all the money in the world can buy! You are priceless though. My obsession hangs on to the memories forever and the trips continue to prick, wound, burn, scathe, dig, till my body withers away into dust. But let me think over from the beginning... where, how and why. Would that change anything? No. Nonetheless, my soul will get over the fact that the first month I could not even recollect your face. My eyes never saw anything beyond your eyes and if somebody asks me today to describe you, I would not know what to reply. Now it makes sense why that aged lady was trying to warn me that you are young and look like a kid. Because you are one! She was trying to save me from getting hurt by you. Your eyes are a window to another world – to the Himalayas – to fairyland – to a place calm and peaceful.


There have been many who tried to help me with my luggage, but you were the only one I felt sorry for not taking help from. And look what I did to make you feel better – let you help me so much so that I feel indebted to meet or repay. I shouldn’t have let you take control, give the reigns of your carriage to a five-year old and sit back to view the pillage. An unknown emotion for thirty years of living. For the first time I grew conscious of my inappropriate attire (when did I ever bother about presentation!?), scattered grey hair (who cares?), wrinkles appearing on my forehead (just in thirties!), impractical outlook (feel immature) and millions of other flaws which were non-existent till this moment. Why did you have to read a book I have been looking for years?  Never initiated conversation but I was destined to break all rules with you so that you become the last cup of poison Meera drank. Is it happening now or déjà vu? Are you like the others with an original mask?  


Meera was immortal, why it never occurred to God I may not survive this giant wheel ride ending in a poisonous grail. All I asked for was the book for a few hours, not for you to give me the book for keeps. You see, it is dangerous if I keep your memory with the book, your handwriting, hollow words, thoughts that might be untrue. Have you seen parents distributing alms to beggars in temples? They do not remember the beggars’ faces in their contentment of giving. What happens when one beggar hangs on to their charity assuming the object given is a token of care? How can you care for a stranger? Has any beggar ever attracted you? Today is not the day to ask this. By the time I can ask you this we may not be conversing with each other.
It all began with a book and the next twenty eight hours of our journey into wilderness! How did we begin the conversation? Do you remember? The lights outside my window seat, or if you have read other books by the same author or thank you for helping with the bag or — I just can’t remember how did you come and sit beside me. Aargh! I was not tracking them. Wish I had observed every word you said, every move you made, every gesture displayed. That would not change the future, absolutely not, but it would have given my mind something else to ponder on. One obsession leading to another — books to you. The whole night you sat beside me listening to junk and I still cannot figure out this huge “why?” Then your destination arrived and that is the moment my conscious mind detached itself from everything tactile around me.


It began to float in an imaginary world full of your voice, your contact information, time spent with you and time spent without you. You have never read classical literature. You don’t even like fiction. So Heathcliff in Wuthering Heights wouldn’t mean much to you. Now I’m even certain you never read Saki. I was one of the many contacts in your phone and you became “the contact” in my device. Somewhere deep inside I knew you are a package of trouble. However, regrets will never cover your fossils with dust. Those political debates that finally took the light away, your obsessions that came in the way of mine and your indifference that swayed over my indulgence. Years later when I am living with a man I would never love, bringing up his children thinking my son should grow up to be like you, compromised existence as the society wanted me to, those beautiful moments are all I have to cherish, to treasure.

You think I’d actually think of you in this way right? You were always full aware of your importance, the way I texted you first, the thoughtlessness of me in giving you all unwanted information, the nagger who told you secrets she never shared with anybody else. You think they will bring tears of joy for a life that will never be my future as you have the benefit of enjoying another company or escaping from this world in some art of living propaganda. I have to agree life would have been bleak, bland, colourless, adventureless, motionless and soulmateless without you. But if you think this pain decorates my mind like the garland exchange ceremony of our imaginary wedding, think again kid, in the reverse order. There were times I felt stupid for storing the empty packets of gifts you brought me; now happy for acting the way I am and always will be — a story collector. Do you know who I am? Why did anybody ever give me the nickname Cleopatra? 

You’ll imagine all your life I will never be myself to anybody again except you till you forget me. You’d be amused musing over these afterthoughts. No phone can store texts forever; no inbox can keep mails for a lifetime, passwords change, handsets break and what can you do if you happen to break my heart. The world thinks what I want it to think, it acts in the same cliché manner I predict. You’ll actually never know what’s on my mind. The mind is where it is engraved and you are not in it. Diaries too can be burnt darling. Have I said anything? Did you understand anything that remains unsaid?