Tuesday, 1 September 2009
Short Story 2009 Longlist
Poetry
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Poetry 2009 ThirdPrize Aliya Khan
The Friendly & The Unfriendly Communion
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The stars have gone wild and invisible,
the moon hides its weak face
behind patches of cloud, The moth hour has buried the old sun in a dark graveyard where the wild stars have been coffined before.
Wild the night
and the spirits wilder roaming in a cyclonic orbit, I know the stars, the moon and the sun all befriend when the spring heralds and goes on to the last breath of its longevity.
But I don’t care
whether it is spring or winter, whether the stars are wild or mild, I keep going on
though the going gets tough.
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Poetry 2009 SecondPrize Maitreyi Karnoor
A MURDER OF CROWS
A red and black macabre sight of the peckers of dead eyes,
Hung out like washing—washing off the burdensome guise
Of compassion from the conscience—the peckers, not the eyes;
Their own eyes staring into an ever ghoulish nothingness.
Hung out like washing—washing off the burdensome guise
Of compassion from the conscience—the peckers, not the eyes;
Their own eyes staring into an ever ghoulish nothingness.
Their will-less wings flung open, at the mercy of
Merciless winds, swaying gently back and forth,
Stilted up by pneumatic bones; as light in life as in life shorn,
Scaring away their own cawing species, demanders of a share in corn.
Merciless winds, swaying gently back and forth,
Stilted up by pneumatic bones; as light in life as in life shorn,
Scaring away their own cawing species, demanders of a share in corn.
Scariest of scarecrows—death
Fear of death to keep off food. The very food
They fight for out of a love of breath
Sometimes—a fight to death: never a paradox so morbidly good.
Fear of death to keep off food. The very food
They fight for out of a love of breath
Sometimes—a fight to death: never a paradox so morbidly good.
Turn a blind eye to it, as blind as a dead crow’s
For its feel is unknown—unheard, unread until your own.
Let out a converse sour-grape whine;
Its rancid juices are not mine: dog-eat-dog eat crow!
For its feel is unknown—unheard, unread until your own.
Let out a converse sour-grape whine;
Its rancid juices are not mine: dog-eat-dog eat crow!
Poetry 2009 FirstPrize Anu Antony
WHAT THE FIDDLE SINGS WHEN YOU PLAY HER STRINGS.
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- By Anu Elizabeth Antony
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The moment he picked the faded fiddle from her lonely mud-brown corner,
she knew she was his.
“Will it hurt?” she asked, suspiciously spying his polish-wet hands.
She'd been alone so long she forgot how it felt to have her strings plucked everyday.
He frowned. Too soon, and her wail would echo in every song. His fiddlestick tickled a happy tune from her,
gently teasing till her watery giggles filled the air.
She would treasure forever this moment, his gift to her. -- And so it was, till a teeming crowd sprung forth demanding love songs. He paled. “Will it hurt?” she teased, her strings strumming a trusting smile. His fingers tightened over her frame. No it won’t, he said, and played ruthlessly on. From her pain, his greatest gift gushed forth. |
Poetry 2009 FeaturedWriter, Indira Ballal
CHILD'S PLAY
Go on!
Sweep everything under the carpet!
Like an ostrich, hide your head in the sand!
This has become a game
Of "In-The-Pond, On-The-Bank.
Many were the games we played,
Like unthinking, naive children:
"Hide & Seek"--you hid and I did seek,
And "Ring-O-Ring-O-Roses",
But, it’s me who fell down.
We played "Leader, Leader, Change, Change",
I led, you changed;
The mad swings and wild see-saws,
I took it all, till "I Spied",
You weren't playing at all.
Only, I was playing,
Playing alone,
A game of " Solitaire"
In my lonely mind:
And, it isn't Child's play anymore.
Poetry 2009 Longlist, Zakir Hussain
I YEARN TO PAINT
I yearn to paint with the pink colour of life
Pink from a missy’s blushing cheeks, which reveal her unannounced love.
Pink from the rose in her tresses, which her lover gifted.
Pink from her soft lips, which experienced the warm kiss.
Pink from a missy’s blushing cheeks, which reveal her unannounced love.
Pink from the rose in her tresses, which her lover gifted.
Pink from her soft lips, which experienced the warm kiss.
I yearn to paint with the green colour of life
Green from the plant of Tulsi, which a mother waters every morn.
Green from the bangles in her wrist, which sing a lullaby.
Green from the banana leaf, which holds lovingly cooked meals.
Green from the plant of Tulsi, which a mother waters every morn.
Green from the bangles in her wrist, which sing a lullaby.
Green from the banana leaf, which holds lovingly cooked meals.
I yearn to paint with the black colour of life
Black from the speck of kohl, which protects from evil eyes.
Black from the piece of charcoal, Hung from the door.
Black from the eyes, which cast evil eyes.
Black from the speck of kohl, which protects from evil eyes.
Black from the piece of charcoal, Hung from the door.
Black from the eyes, which cast evil eyes.
I yearn to paint with red colour of life
Red from a martyr’s blood, which stained the battlefield.
Red from the pyre’s fire, which cremated his body.
Red from his widow’s vermilion, which deserted her parting.
Red from a martyr’s blood, which stained the battlefield.
Red from the pyre’s fire, which cremated his body.
Red from his widow’s vermilion, which deserted her parting.
I yearn to paint with the white colour of life
White from the Imperialists’ skin, against whose rule, the Father fought.
White from the salt of Dandi, which became his weapon.
White from the cotton thread, which spun the fabric of a nation.
White from the Imperialists’ skin, against whose rule, the Father fought.
White from the salt of Dandi, which became his weapon.
White from the cotton thread, which spun the fabric of a nation.
Poetry 2009 FeaturedWriter Nikunj Jain
MAY BE FADED
And when he’s written it all
He wishes he could write
He wishes he could write
After years of pain, anger, suffering, hatred, agony...
Its vellications of joy and happiness he longs for
Its vellications of joy and happiness he longs for
After countless stares, it’s plastic smiles he longs for
After decades of solitude, it’s delusions of love, he longs for
After centuries of insanity, it’s imperfection, he longs for
After infinities of silence, it’s frailty of words, he longs for
After burials of pens, it’s that resurrection of that bar-less prison he longs for
After an era of darkness, it’s that obstruction of day he longs for
After a lifetime of strength, it’s human weakness, he longs for
After decades of solitude, it’s delusions of love, he longs for
After centuries of insanity, it’s imperfection, he longs for
After infinities of silence, it’s frailty of words, he longs for
After burials of pens, it’s that resurrection of that bar-less prison he longs for
After an era of darkness, it’s that obstruction of day he longs for
After a lifetime of strength, it’s human weakness, he longs for
He’s had his share of truths, it’s fake promises he longs for
No more eternal dreams, it’s feeble memories he longs for
No more eternal dreams, it’s feeble memories he longs for
His canvas, still, plain white, (may be faded), yet, it’s the darkness of red he longs for
Poetry 2009 Longlist, Neelima P
ULTRASOUND
White walls
And diamond tiles
Over my head
As they gelled my womb
And looked for a life.
And diamond tiles
Over my head
As they gelled my womb
And looked for a life.
The red report
Had my favorite
Secret .I grabbed
It to see if there was
A form, a shape,
Had my favorite
Secret .I grabbed
It to see if there was
A form, a shape,
A beginning, an end,
A breath, a beat,
They didn’t explain
The spine and the head
But I saw
A breath, a beat,
They didn’t explain
The spine and the head
But I saw
My heart beat there.
Poetry 2009 Longlist, Apeksha Harihar
LAST NIGHT …
Deep within my heart, a voice called out to me.
It asked me if I’m still alive, whether I want to live
From head to toe, you are ruined it said,
You are destroyed in every way.
You have a weak will; your spirits are now low.
You won’t be able to face a happy world anymore.
Deep within it kept speaking a voice that would never stop.
It asked me if I’m still alive, whether I want to live
From head to toe, you are ruined it said,
You are destroyed in every way.
You have a weak will; your spirits are now low.
You won’t be able to face a happy world anymore.
Deep within it kept speaking a voice that would never stop.
And then I rose to put forward my condition, and then I spoke again
From head to toe I’m experienced not ruined, I screamed in my defence.
The phases of my life have taught me a lot, yes it has made me cry a lot
But, now I am not sitting back, depressed, lonely and dark.
I am up on my feet again challenging everything to its mark.
From head to toe I’m experienced not ruined, I screamed in my defence.
The phases of my life have taught me a lot, yes it has made me cry a lot
But, now I am not sitting back, depressed, lonely and dark.
I am up on my feet again challenging everything to its mark.
My inner voice is speaking again,
It’s asking me to leave, leave the desire of love behind and
Drown into the deep.
Save me for I don’t want to lose, I want to fight for my life
Live until the very end and prove that I am right.
No pain, no sorrow, no despair will remain, after I am gone.
So as I live I will go through them, not unhappy that I was born.
It’s asking me to leave, leave the desire of love behind and
Drown into the deep.
Save me for I don’t want to lose, I want to fight for my life
Live until the very end and prove that I am right.
No pain, no sorrow, no despair will remain, after I am gone.
So as I live I will go through them, not unhappy that I was born.
ShortStory 2009 ThirdPrize Zakir Hussain
The Hallowed Gallows
“Shamshersingh, is everything okay?” asks the jail superintendent.
“Yes, Sahib. The carpenter has repaired the gallows. I have started preparing the noose and it should be ready in two-three days,” I answer. “Good. Check everything twice, I don’t want any gaffe,” he says. “Okay Sahib,” I reply back.
In the following few days, the preparations get completed. The noose and the gallows are ready. On the eve of April 29, I come all prepared to the jail. I go and lie down on the cot. I also set the alarm. But I just can’t sleep tonight. The newness of the place, the mosquitoes, the noise of rats and the thought of Aafiyat; they all make sure that I remain wide awake.
Aafiyat Muzammil Lone.
I will be hanging her tomorrow. It’s my third time; the last time was six years ago.
A fortnight ago I had met her in the cell, for taking her height and weight after the date of her execution was fixed. She was kept in solitary confinement ever since her date of execution was fixed.
I can never forget my meeting with her. She was offering prayer when I entered. Soon, she finished. I looked at her. She was Aafiyat, all of 21 years and 3and ½ months to be precise; a young, beautiful and charming girl. She reminded me of my own daughter, Meera, who is 23. No one looking at her could say that she was a ‘terrorist’ who could have cold bloodedly murdered the Home Minister of Jammu and Kashmir.
“Yes” she said to bring me out of my thoughts. “I am Shamshersingh Rana, the hangman of this jail. As you know the date is fixed on 29th of April. I have come to take your height and weight” I said. “Sure” she replied with ease. She was relaxed, as if it was routine. I finished taking the measurements and stood there. Her apparent innocence had raised hundreds of questions in my mind. I couldn’t resist getting answers to them, so I went ahead and asked her, “Would you mind if I ask you something?” “Go ahead” she said.
“Is it true that you have assassinated the home minister of J&K?” I asked with a look of skepticism on my face. She looked straight into my eyes, as if thinking what a stupid question that was. Hasn’t she already confessed her crime? She proudly replied, “Yes”. I looked at her thinking if I should ask anything more.
“But what made you do so” I asked anxiously.
“You are a hangman, right. You hang people; you kill them. Why do you do so?” she counter-queried me.
“It’s my job; it’s my duty which I fulfill. I help deliver justice” I said to silence her argument.
“Well the same way, it was my duty, which I fulfilled and thus delivered the justice,” she said haughtily.
“Who gave you this authority to deliver justice? You cannot take laws of land in your hands,” I fired back.
“What can one do when the injustice is rendered by those so-called protectors of justice?” she grumbled rebelliously. I was incensed at her defiance. But I couldn’t leave as those unrequited questions were still hovering over my mind.
“I don’t want to scratch old wounds, but will you tell me your complete story” I requested.
“But why are you so interested?” she asked surprisingly.
“I don’t know? It’s instinctive,” I said.
She went and sat down. I too sat there.
She started, “It was such a fine day. That day the valley had witnessed the first snowfall of the season. That year it was a little earlier compared to the last. I knew what this meant. It meant the start of the tourist season. The snowfall would always bring joy to our family, as my father and brother were both tourist guides. I had gone to the college and was on my way back home when our neighbour, Nilufer came hurriedly towards me and asked me to rush home. I asked her what the matter was, but she didn’t say anything. There was a big crowd of crying men, women and kids outside my house. My heart started pounding. A little farther I saw my mother surrounded by a mob of ladies. I sifted through them. My mom was sitting there like a statue while everyone was crying uncontrollably. I asked her what the matter was but she didn’t reply. I stirred her, but still she didn’t reciprocate. She had lost her senses.
Meanwhile someone took me inside. There were bodies of Abba, Bhai and Aafreen, my younger sister on the floor.”
She could continue no more and broke into tears.
I could virtually see the ‘dance of death’ through her eyes. It took her sometime before she could carry on further.
“Actually a fortnight ago some pundits were massacred during Prime Minister’s visit to the valley. The police was not able to nail the perpetrators responsible for this heinous act and there was escalating pressure on them. They were being called tardy and inefficient. My brother who was involved in the separatist movement was a sore in their eyes. So they used this tried and tested trick of winning laurels and silencing everyone to surmount the pressure. They killed my father and brother in a proxy encounter, tagging them as terrorists. Not only this, Aafreen who was just fifteen then was gang-raped by them. My mother who was a mute witness to these ghastly acts lost her senses. All this was just too much for Aafreen to cope up with, so she stabbed herself to death. In a jiffy my entire family was lost. And I was left to witness the annihilation.” There was a raging fire of revenge in her eyes.
She continued, “What crime had my brother committed? Why are we called terrorists and agents of Pakistan? All we want is independent Kashmir, free from India, free from Pakistan. When Indians fought for their freedom they were called freedom fighters. But when we do that we are labelled as terrorists. Since that day there was only one aim on my mind; to slay the person behind all this. I came to know that it was home minister, Munavvar Ali Dar.
I joined a Mujaahideen group and took training from them. They wanted me to become a suicide bomber but I declined, although that would have been much easier and I would not have had to rot in jail. I didn’t want to commit suicide, and secondly I wanted to kill only him and not anyone innocent. So in a rally in Baramulla, I shot him dead and surrendered myself. I never appointed any lawyer for my trial as I myself wanted death sentence. My wish soon got fulfilled; I too was labelled a terrorist like my family and sentenced to capital punishment.
Unfortunately my case was referred to the President for converting my death punishment into life sentence. The President was ready to do that provided I repent my act and promise to lead the life of a responsible Indian citizen after finishing my punishment. However I didn’t want to decay in jail, so I told him that if they will leave me alive then I shall kill many such Munavvar Alis. Thankfully my punishment was not changed. It’s now only few more days. After that I will be in heaven with my family; but I will miss my mother over there.” I was taken aback after listening to her.
This is the age when girls learn cooking; she had learnt shooting. This is the age when girls colour their hands with henna; she had coloured them with somebody’s blood. This is the age when girls dream of marrying someone and starting a new life; she was dreaming of putting a full stop to someone’s life and eventually to her own.
Everyone knows his or her birthday, but no one knows his or her day of death; she knew.
I was immersed in these thoughts. I came back home, but I couldn’t vacate my mind of her memories.
Soon the alarm rang. I didn’t realise how time had passed thinking of my meeting with Aafiyat. I got up and went to the gallows for preparing for execution. Within no time the jail officials arrived. The time of execution was near. She was brought to the hall. She appeared pride personified. She was told of her crime and punishment, which she accepted. As I am tying her hands I could hear her saying “Laa ilaahaa illAllah, Muhammad-ur-rasul Allah” continuously. Finally her head was covered with the hood and the noose placed round her neck. Exactly at 5’O clock I pulled the lever.
A shriek filled the arena.
The justice was delivered on the ‘hallowed gallows’. After sometime her body was brought down.
Later I went home and tried sleeping, as I was not able to sleep the entire night yesterday. But I wasn’t able to sleep. I was surrounded by the thoughts of Aafiyat. I switched on the TV. Although she had left this world, she was there on every news channel. On one, they were showing the celebrations that were going on at the house of Munavvar Ali. After all, the terrorist behind his killing was executed. While one was showing Aafiyat’s mother, lost in her own world. I switched off the TV.
Aafiyat was executed. A branch of terrorism, if it's called so, which had sprawled on the heavenly soil of Kashmir, had been chopped off. But what about it’s roots, which are deep in ground and the seeds, which are being sown perennially? Well none cares to dig to diagnose. Only that is perceived which is apparent. Is this the remedy for the malady of terrorism? Aren’t we a nation, which has been taught to hate the crime and not the criminal? Then how come we are satiated by killing the criminal and overlooking the crime and its origins? I can’t remark on the righteousness of the law but being a human I know this much that whatever had happened was unjust. It’s not that I support her, or her crime but I don’t support the punishment rather.
How then could I be a part of it? I decided to make her my last assignment. The last life to be erased from the surface of the earth by the pulling of the lever by my hands. I got up and left for the jail superintendent’s office to submit my resignation.
“Shamshersingh, is everything okay?” asks the jail superintendent.
“Yes, Sahib. The carpenter has repaired the gallows. I have started preparing the noose and it should be ready in two-three days,” I answer. “Good. Check everything twice, I don’t want any gaffe,” he says. “Okay Sahib,” I reply back.
In the following few days, the preparations get completed. The noose and the gallows are ready. On the eve of April 29, I come all prepared to the jail. I go and lie down on the cot. I also set the alarm. But I just can’t sleep tonight. The newness of the place, the mosquitoes, the noise of rats and the thought of Aafiyat; they all make sure that I remain wide awake.
Aafiyat Muzammil Lone.
I will be hanging her tomorrow. It’s my third time; the last time was six years ago.
A fortnight ago I had met her in the cell, for taking her height and weight after the date of her execution was fixed. She was kept in solitary confinement ever since her date of execution was fixed.
I can never forget my meeting with her. She was offering prayer when I entered. Soon, she finished. I looked at her. She was Aafiyat, all of 21 years and 3and ½ months to be precise; a young, beautiful and charming girl. She reminded me of my own daughter, Meera, who is 23. No one looking at her could say that she was a ‘terrorist’ who could have cold bloodedly murdered the Home Minister of Jammu and Kashmir.
“Yes” she said to bring me out of my thoughts. “I am Shamshersingh Rana, the hangman of this jail. As you know the date is fixed on 29th of April. I have come to take your height and weight” I said. “Sure” she replied with ease. She was relaxed, as if it was routine. I finished taking the measurements and stood there. Her apparent innocence had raised hundreds of questions in my mind. I couldn’t resist getting answers to them, so I went ahead and asked her, “Would you mind if I ask you something?” “Go ahead” she said.
“Is it true that you have assassinated the home minister of J&K?” I asked with a look of skepticism on my face. She looked straight into my eyes, as if thinking what a stupid question that was. Hasn’t she already confessed her crime? She proudly replied, “Yes”. I looked at her thinking if I should ask anything more.
“But what made you do so” I asked anxiously.
“You are a hangman, right. You hang people; you kill them. Why do you do so?” she counter-queried me.
“It’s my job; it’s my duty which I fulfill. I help deliver justice” I said to silence her argument.
“Well the same way, it was my duty, which I fulfilled and thus delivered the justice,” she said haughtily.
“Who gave you this authority to deliver justice? You cannot take laws of land in your hands,” I fired back.
“What can one do when the injustice is rendered by those so-called protectors of justice?” she grumbled rebelliously. I was incensed at her defiance. But I couldn’t leave as those unrequited questions were still hovering over my mind.
“I don’t want to scratch old wounds, but will you tell me your complete story” I requested.
“But why are you so interested?” she asked surprisingly.
“I don’t know? It’s instinctive,” I said.
She went and sat down. I too sat there.
She started, “It was such a fine day. That day the valley had witnessed the first snowfall of the season. That year it was a little earlier compared to the last. I knew what this meant. It meant the start of the tourist season. The snowfall would always bring joy to our family, as my father and brother were both tourist guides. I had gone to the college and was on my way back home when our neighbour, Nilufer came hurriedly towards me and asked me to rush home. I asked her what the matter was, but she didn’t say anything. There was a big crowd of crying men, women and kids outside my house. My heart started pounding. A little farther I saw my mother surrounded by a mob of ladies. I sifted through them. My mom was sitting there like a statue while everyone was crying uncontrollably. I asked her what the matter was but she didn’t reply. I stirred her, but still she didn’t reciprocate. She had lost her senses.
Meanwhile someone took me inside. There were bodies of Abba, Bhai and Aafreen, my younger sister on the floor.”
She could continue no more and broke into tears.
I could virtually see the ‘dance of death’ through her eyes. It took her sometime before she could carry on further.
“Actually a fortnight ago some pundits were massacred during Prime Minister’s visit to the valley. The police was not able to nail the perpetrators responsible for this heinous act and there was escalating pressure on them. They were being called tardy and inefficient. My brother who was involved in the separatist movement was a sore in their eyes. So they used this tried and tested trick of winning laurels and silencing everyone to surmount the pressure. They killed my father and brother in a proxy encounter, tagging them as terrorists. Not only this, Aafreen who was just fifteen then was gang-raped by them. My mother who was a mute witness to these ghastly acts lost her senses. All this was just too much for Aafreen to cope up with, so she stabbed herself to death. In a jiffy my entire family was lost. And I was left to witness the annihilation.” There was a raging fire of revenge in her eyes.
She continued, “What crime had my brother committed? Why are we called terrorists and agents of Pakistan? All we want is independent Kashmir, free from India, free from Pakistan. When Indians fought for their freedom they were called freedom fighters. But when we do that we are labelled as terrorists. Since that day there was only one aim on my mind; to slay the person behind all this. I came to know that it was home minister, Munavvar Ali Dar.
I joined a Mujaahideen group and took training from them. They wanted me to become a suicide bomber but I declined, although that would have been much easier and I would not have had to rot in jail. I didn’t want to commit suicide, and secondly I wanted to kill only him and not anyone innocent. So in a rally in Baramulla, I shot him dead and surrendered myself. I never appointed any lawyer for my trial as I myself wanted death sentence. My wish soon got fulfilled; I too was labelled a terrorist like my family and sentenced to capital punishment.
Unfortunately my case was referred to the President for converting my death punishment into life sentence. The President was ready to do that provided I repent my act and promise to lead the life of a responsible Indian citizen after finishing my punishment. However I didn’t want to decay in jail, so I told him that if they will leave me alive then I shall kill many such Munavvar Alis. Thankfully my punishment was not changed. It’s now only few more days. After that I will be in heaven with my family; but I will miss my mother over there.” I was taken aback after listening to her.
This is the age when girls learn cooking; she had learnt shooting. This is the age when girls colour their hands with henna; she had coloured them with somebody’s blood. This is the age when girls dream of marrying someone and starting a new life; she was dreaming of putting a full stop to someone’s life and eventually to her own.
Everyone knows his or her birthday, but no one knows his or her day of death; she knew.
I was immersed in these thoughts. I came back home, but I couldn’t vacate my mind of her memories.
Soon the alarm rang. I didn’t realise how time had passed thinking of my meeting with Aafiyat. I got up and went to the gallows for preparing for execution. Within no time the jail officials arrived. The time of execution was near. She was brought to the hall. She appeared pride personified. She was told of her crime and punishment, which she accepted. As I am tying her hands I could hear her saying “Laa ilaahaa illAllah, Muhammad-ur-rasul Allah” continuously. Finally her head was covered with the hood and the noose placed round her neck. Exactly at 5’O clock I pulled the lever.
A shriek filled the arena.
The justice was delivered on the ‘hallowed gallows’. After sometime her body was brought down.
Later I went home and tried sleeping, as I was not able to sleep the entire night yesterday. But I wasn’t able to sleep. I was surrounded by the thoughts of Aafiyat. I switched on the TV. Although she had left this world, she was there on every news channel. On one, they were showing the celebrations that were going on at the house of Munavvar Ali. After all, the terrorist behind his killing was executed. While one was showing Aafiyat’s mother, lost in her own world. I switched off the TV.
Aafiyat was executed. A branch of terrorism, if it's called so, which had sprawled on the heavenly soil of Kashmir, had been chopped off. But what about it’s roots, which are deep in ground and the seeds, which are being sown perennially? Well none cares to dig to diagnose. Only that is perceived which is apparent. Is this the remedy for the malady of terrorism? Aren’t we a nation, which has been taught to hate the crime and not the criminal? Then how come we are satiated by killing the criminal and overlooking the crime and its origins? I can’t remark on the righteousness of the law but being a human I know this much that whatever had happened was unjust. It’s not that I support her, or her crime but I don’t support the punishment rather.
How then could I be a part of it? I decided to make her my last assignment. The last life to be erased from the surface of the earth by the pulling of the lever by my hands. I got up and left for the jail superintendent’s office to submit my resignation.
ShortStory 2009 SecondPrize Mohit Rao
THE DISEASE
Every time the young man entered the room,
Nurse Ratched broke into a maternal smile that conveyed the utmost
affection. She spoke about him in high praises to the other nurses and
even to the other inmates. He was as rare as rare can be, a ‘blue-eyed
wonder’, she declared confidently.
“It would seem so. But I advise you not to raise your hopes”, Ratched replied.
“No… No. He has changed. Not like that lecherous…. ”, he stopped to remember a name.
“Yes, he seems to have changed, so unlike George. I hope for your sake”, Ratched said wearily.
“I cannot remember his name now”, he said, pausing for a while to recall the name. Unsuccessful in his attempt, the colonel continued, “But, usually he comes to visit at this time”.
“He must be delayed with some work today. If not today, he will come tomorrow”
“Yes….. Yes”, Jack muttered before a quiescent, vacuous look overcame him.
“Nurse Ratched speaking- What? n accident? When did this happen- day before? Oh the poor soul…..” before she could complete the sentence, her eyes welled up and her throat knotted. The ground grew unsteady and all senses descended into obscurity. She could not speak anymore and gasped like she had trouble breathing. She stammered a few words, a few incoherent words. Slamming down the receiver, she ran to the restroom. She wept, she cried till she could cry no more. Her throat was parched, her eyes puffy. Her lips trembled. And in the confusion of her mind, only one thought stood out clearly - Bob was dead.
Jack stared at the weeping nurse. His countenance remained unchanged. It was obvious to her that he had not comprehended the impact of those words. He struggled to recall the identity of Bob. Struck back by this lack of recognition, Nurse Ratched was indignant.
“That young man who used to visit you everyday”, she asserted angrily and then immediately regretted the tone. Jack showed some semblance of remembrance. “That young man is Bob, your son. He died day before yesterday in a car accident”. The gravity of these words caused her to well up with tears again.
Initially,
his arrival was regarded with suspicion. With the cynicism of
experience, she viewed any such sudden arrival to the old-age home with
considerable contempt. These ‘long lost’ sycophantic relatives dropped
in once a year; cadged their way with unctuous smiles into the old
man’s will; shed a few tearful goodbyes and were never to be seen
again; That is, until the old man was buried and his will removed. But,
he- he was different.
He, with his blue eyes, a
benignant smile and a poignant face, introduced himself as ‘Bob
Russell’, the son of ‘Jack Russell’. Nurse Ratched hesitatingly and
with great distrust led him to her favorite inmate, a seventy year old wheel
chair ridden Alzheimer patient. She watched this father-son reunion
with considerable skepticism.
Jack had had a visitor only
twice in the two years of his stay. Both times it was his elder son,
George Russell, an avaricious salesman who had been described by Jack
as “a bottom feeder. For a dollar he would sell his own soul!”. With
his rough manner and unruly snide remarks, he left an unfavorable
impression on Nurse Ratched. Jack sparingly talked about a second son, a
vagrant, who fell into bad company, took to alcohol and eventually
into drugs. The last Jack heard was that the son was jailed for
larceny. ‘A leech to society’, he said contemptuously to Nurse Ratched.
She continued to keep a close
eye on the father-son interaction. It was hard to believe that a young
man of such saintly features could indulge in what she perceived as
such odious activities. Jack could hardly recognize his younger son.
Maybe it was the disease or maybe just his change in appearance and
demeanour, but Jack wore a puzzled expression. Bob explained his
‘clean-up’, his ‘spiritual awakening’. He was sober, with a low paying
honest job. “Not a day goes by without remorse for my actions”, he
explained. “Jail gave me time to think, for the mind wanders in the
solitude of the cell. There was little to do except to review my life –
all the mistakes and all the humiliation”. Jack, and Nurse Ratched
seeing from afar, viewed the declamation with dubiety. “Dad, I’m a born
again Christian”, he kneaded the silver cross slung on his neck,” It’s
funny, how life works - for me to find God, amidst the criminals and
the lost souls in prison”. He paused and with a sigh stared down at the
floor – an elegy of his sinful past. A first rate act, thought Nurse
Ratched. “Father, I’m sorry for everything. I’m sorry for the pain and
humiliation. I’m sorry for not being there during your illness.”
Jack’s eyes welled up. His
throat was caught. And with a benevolent smile, Bob’s nefarious past
was forgiven. However, Nurse Ratched continued to watch him with
suspicion. ‘Prudence, Jack’, she muttered under her breath.
Their desultory conversation
continued for hours. Jack talked most of the time, hopping from one
topic onto another and oft repeating topics, but Bob nodded with
Zen-like patience. Bob and Jack proceeded to play carrom, a game in
which Jack was surprisingly adept at. His unsteady fingers disposed the
coins into the pockets with deft ease. Jack exclaimed joy, an
expression the nurses had rarely seen before. He was like a boy, so
intense was his pleasure. Nurse Ratched waited for the mention of the
‘will’ or money’, but it never came. After spending the entire
afternoon, Bob promised to return the next day.
“He’s not coming back”, Ratched
spewed venomously to a fellow nurse. “These greedy people always say
that with crossed fingers and an eye at that money.” She eyed Bob as he
was leaving and continued her tirade to a disinterested nurse.
“He has changed. That was my
son, he has changed”, said a visibly proud Jack, rolling his wheelchair
toward nurse Ratched. “He has got a job and forgotten about all that
nasty business.” Jack said with a naive child-like innocence.
“It would seem so. But I advise you not to raise your hopes”, Ratched replied.
“No… No. He has changed. Not like that lecherous…. ”, he stopped to remember a name.
“Yes, he seems to have changed, so unlike George. I hope for your sake”, Ratched said wearily.
Nurse Ratched’s relation with
Jack had started off, like any nurse-patient relationship, as pity. She
lent a sympathetic ear, listening patiently as old colonel ranted
against country and children. The morose wheel chair ridden man
recounted, with immense sadness, the tragedies in his life and in Nurse
Ratched he found a compassionate audience. She was his ministering
angel, oft muttering a kindly word to ease his troubled soul. As the
disease progressed, this melancholy was replaced by a saintly innocence
– almost like a lost child. His sorrowful soliloquies were gradually
replaced by a confused silence. He found it hard to maintain a constant
train of thought, unable to make a decision on his own. His once sharp
mind was blunted by the vicious disease, rendering him completely
dependent on Nurse Ratched, who assumed a matronly mantle.
It was like a
pestilential disease that would not take your life but would take from
you all that made life worth living. The disease was wiping out his
identity. Seventy years of experiences, of joys and tragedies, of
family and friends, of childhood and adolescence, of marriage and
children, were all resigned to a collection of hazy memories, which
would be gradually faded away as the disease progressed. This disease
had taken away from him the right to solitude in retirement, of
reconciliation with life and God. Colonel Jack Russell, the celebrated
hero of the Second World War, was going to die in the solitary confines
of his mind. Nurse Ratched spent countless hours crying in the shelter
of darkness for the old colonel.
For Jack, the sliver of
happiness came in the form of an estranged son. His son came everyday,
to the absolute disbelief of Nurse Ratched. After the first week of
meetings, buoyed by the candour loquacity of his father, Bob brought
with him a portable record player and a bunch of old vinyl records
belonging to the old colonel. Jazz and blues permeated the room as Jack
fell into a sort of hypnotic trance - snapping his fingers, tapping
his feet and humming along. For a man who could no more recall his
achievements in the war, he recollected with amazing precision the names
of these artistes.
Their jaunts continued daily.
During the weekdays Bob would visit in his lunch break, and during the
weekends he would stay for almost the entire day. He pushed his
father’s wheelchair, strolled through the gardens and talked in high
cheery tones. In Nurse Ratched’s eyes, Bob had grown from ‘a leech to
society’ to a ‘blue-eyed wonder’. With his daily visits, she became
closer to him; sometimes even looking forward to his visits as
enthusiastically as Jack.
Alzheimer’ disease is
unrelenting; systematically removing memories held so dear that when
the last vestiges of memory fades away, one is reduced to being a
stranger to oneself. In the last few months Jack’s mental health was
deteriorating rapidly. Spells of confused, vacuous blankness increased.
He spent most of the time staring at the wall, seemingly with no
thought in his mind. Even though he recognized a familiar face, he had a
hard time placing the face and obtaining a name. He gleamed with mirth
when Bob entered the room but could hardly ever recall his name. Bob
was usually referred to as ‘that young man’. Once while strolling
through the gardens, Jack told Bob about his younger son, now
estranged, who was a ‘leech to society’. Bob was crestfallen and only
uttered a low sigh. Nurse Ratched, who often strolled with them, tried
to explain to Jack that the companion he was talking to was indeed his
own son. For Jack all this was incredulous. After expounding the facts
of his return in lucid detail, Jack turned to Bob and exclaimed “You’ve
changed a lot”. And with a benevolent smile, Bob’s nefarious past was
forgiven, again.
However, on the next day during a
similar stroll, Nurse Ratched overheard Jack telling Bob about his
younger son, now estranged and ‘a leech to society’. Nurse Ratched
unable to bear Bob’s humiliation, explained to him about Bob’s
‘spiritual awakening’. But, the old colonel stared in disbelief, not
comprehending the facts being told. He insisted that his son was in
jail ‘for thieving from some poor sod’. However after much
deliberation, the old colonel turned to Bob and exclaimed “You’ve
changed a lot”. The next day, the entire cycle repeated. After getting a
bit weary of the explaining, Bob turned to Nurse Ratched and said
“It’s alright even if he doesn’t remember me. As long as I know that he
approves of me now. All that is important to me is that he has a
companion to help him live the rest of his life in dignity he
deserves”. Nurse Ratched spent countless hours that night crying for
the old colonel and his son.
Bob came daily, yet the old
colonel failed to recognize him as his son. Bob resigned to the fact
that he would forever be a relic of the colonel’s past. He was
disappointed but found solace in the thought that the old colonel
eagerly waited for his company.
One afternoon, Bob did not
arrive. The colonel stared at his watch for some time and then rolled
his wheelchair towards Nurse Ratched.
“Where is that young man?” he asked her.
“You mean Bob?” she replied.
“You mean Bob?” she replied.
“I cannot remember his name now”, he said, pausing for a while to recall the name. Unsuccessful in his attempt, the colonel continued, “But, usually he comes to visit at this time”.
“He must be delayed with some work today. If not today, he will come tomorrow”
“Yes….. Yes”, Jack muttered before a quiescent, vacuous look overcame him.
Bob did not arrive that day or
the day after that. Both of them grew anxious. Every half hour, a
visibly restless Jack would roll his wheelchair over to the nurse’s
workstation and ask Nurse Ratched about ‘that young man’. ‘Delayed by
work’, would be her reply, thinly veiling her panicky solicitude. She
feared for Bob. A vile thought would creep in - maybe, he has given up
on his father or maybe, he is tired of the humiliation. Her eyes would
moisten and would later regret ever considering such a thought.
Another afternoon of waiting and
there was no sight of Bob. The sun dipped below the horizon and a
golden light seeped through the blinds. Nurse Ratched often looked at
Jack who stared out of the window with his usual inscrutable
expression. She knew he was eagerly waiting for someone whose name or
face he could not recall.
The phone rang, she ignored it. She was lost in the monologue of her thoughts, worrying about Bob and Jack and his disease.
“Nurse Ratched. It’s for you. It is George Russell”, an attendant informed her.
Puzzled by the mention of George, she took the receiver and proceeded to talk to Jack’s seedy elder son.
Puzzled by the mention of George, she took the receiver and proceeded to talk to Jack’s seedy elder son.
“Nurse Ratched speaking- What? n accident? When did this happen- day before? Oh the poor soul…..” before she could complete the sentence, her eyes welled up and her throat knotted. The ground grew unsteady and all senses descended into obscurity. She could not speak anymore and gasped like she had trouble breathing. She stammered a few words, a few incoherent words. Slamming down the receiver, she ran to the restroom. She wept, she cried till she could cry no more. Her throat was parched, her eyes puffy. Her lips trembled. And in the confusion of her mind, only one thought stood out clearly - Bob was dead.
When she came out of the
restroom, barely able to stand and barely able to stop herself from
crying even more, she sauntered towards the window where Jack was. He
was in a blissful slumber. Seeing the innocuous old man she let out an
uncontrolled yelp. Jack woke up.
“Your son- Your son is dead…..
Bob is dead," Nurse Ratched said softly. She had to summon these words
after many aborted attempts.
Jack stared at the weeping nurse. His countenance remained unchanged. It was obvious to her that he had not comprehended the impact of those words. He struggled to recall the identity of Bob. Struck back by this lack of recognition, Nurse Ratched was indignant.
“That young man who used to visit you everyday”, she asserted angrily and then immediately regretted the tone. Jack showed some semblance of remembrance. “That young man is Bob, your son. He died day before yesterday in a car accident”. The gravity of these words caused her to well up with tears again.
“No. It can’t be. Bob is in jail
for stealing from some poor sod. He is a leech to society…” Jack
continued his bitter tirade, as if oblivious to the weeping nurse in
front of him.
“Jack!” Nurse Ratched vociferated in a tone that silenced the colonel. Jack stopped his declamation and stared at her in shock. The nurse continued in a subdued tone, “Bob was released from jail sometime ago. He came out a born-again Christian. He turned over a new leaf. He had apologized for the pain caused to you in the past. He came to visit you everyday”. She paused and covered her eyes with her hands. “He said the least he could do was to come over and give you company”. She could continue no more.
“Jack!” Nurse Ratched vociferated in a tone that silenced the colonel. Jack stopped his declamation and stared at her in shock. The nurse continued in a subdued tone, “Bob was released from jail sometime ago. He came out a born-again Christian. He turned over a new leaf. He had apologized for the pain caused to you in the past. He came to visit you everyday”. She paused and covered her eyes with her hands. “He said the least he could do was to come over and give you company”. She could continue no more.
A flood of memories rushed in
and Jack murmured something inaudible in a low mournful tone. The knots
in his throat prevented him from speaking anything further. He closed
his eyes and his lips quivered a little. Small channels of tears made
its way from underneath the closed eyelids. ‘He changed a lot’ is all
he could manage.
Nurse Ratched spent the night
weeping by his side. By midnight, Jack had fallen asleep. In the wee
hours of the night, Nurse Ratched staggered home still thinking about
Bob as she walked through an insensitive city.
The next morning, Nurse Ratched
appeared by Jack’s side. Violet bags drooped from under her eyes and
she appeared profoundly weary. Jack did little, spoke little and wore a
gloomy demeanour – one of unfathomable sadness. There was an awkward
silence between them. Both stared out the same window, thinking about
the same person.
Bob’s funeral was a meager,
somber affair. There was no eulogy. The tombstone read simply – Bob
Russell, Son of Jack Russell. Only a handful of people attended and
George was conspicuously absent. To Nurse Ratched, the funeral seemed
to denigrate his entire existence.
The next day, Nurse Ratched performed her duties languidly, still distracted by Bob’s death. She frequently checked on Jack who bore an inscrutable expression. Maybe still mourning or maybe lapsed into disease provoked thoughtlessness, she could not tell with certainty. The day passed by with little being said between them. The next day too Jack bore a sepulchral appearance. He was mourning, but could not recall the name or face of the person for whom he mourned.
The next day, Nurse Ratched performed her duties languidly, still distracted by Bob’s death. She frequently checked on Jack who bore an inscrutable expression. Maybe still mourning or maybe lapsed into disease provoked thoughtlessness, she could not tell with certainty. The day passed by with little being said between them. The next day too Jack bore a sepulchral appearance. He was mourning, but could not recall the name or face of the person for whom he mourned.
The coming week was hard on
Nurse Ratched. A few times, in his mentally weakest moments, Jack had
asked her about ‘that young man who usually visits at this time’. This
perturbed Nurse Ratched who had to relive the moments following that
phone call. She had to explain again that the young man was his son
Bob, who died in a car crash a few days ago. Hearing this Jack grew
melancholic and withdrew into a shell.
After the week, Nurse Ratched,
anxious about Jack, pleaded with a friendly attendant, Steven, to play a
game of carom with him. Only after persistent pleas, the hesitant
attendant went over to Jack and engaged him in a game of carrom. That
day, Jack stared at the board and disconcertedly indulged the
attendant.
Under the orders of the senior
Nurse Ratched, Steven went over to Jack every afternoon and tried to
draw him into a conversation or a game of carom. Initially, Jack
indulged him distractedly, replying the attendant’s incessant questions
with monosyllable answers and struck the carom coins listlessly.
However, gradually he opened up to the young attendant. Until one
afternoon there was no more perturbation on his face.
Their afternoon rendezvous
continued and Jack gradually returned to his usual jocund self. The
circumstances seemed familiar enough – a young man visited him every
afternoon, played carom with him and even took him for strolls around
the garden; he soon forgot about the tragedy and about his son. One
afternoon while strolling through the gardens, Nurse Ratched overheard
Jack telling Steven about his younger son, now estranged, ‘a leech to
society’, ‘thrown in the slammer for thieving from some poor sod’.
Nurse Ratched appeared
crestfallen. She was about to remind Jack about the reformed Bob and all
that he had done for him when the vivacity of one thought stopped her
–‘He will not remember it tomorrow’. The disease ravaging through
Jack’s mind had wiped out any memory of his son’s reformation. Bob
would remain forever ‘a leech’ in his memory and Nurse Ratched
understood it as an ignoble reality of his life. She found solace in
Bob’s words “All that is important to me is that he has a companion to
help him live the rest of his life in dignity he deserves”. This
epiphany caused her to gaze dully at the old colonel. Nurse Ratched
spent countless hours that night crying for the old colonel, his
disease and his son.
ShortStory 2009 FirstPrize Sandeep Shete
Platform Times
Tingu, the 'thekbaaz', who was all of thirteen, liked his victims male and between thirty-five and forty. His partner Usman, the 'machine', a year older and three inches taller than Tingu, preferred the low-hanging fruit instead. Upper class women toddling down the footbridges dragging gargantuan shopping bags along. Harried salesmen pleading over cellphones, always too distant from the crowds they jostled in to recognise the dangers that lurked within them. And other such types. For him, even doddering old men, who would be lucky to just make it through the brutal Mumbai commute alive, were fair game.
Challenges never gave Usman a high. Like Tingu, he got his highs from the daily fix of ganja they smoked before going to bed every night. A tattered yellow polythene sheet spread underneath a staircase on Bandra station’s platform number two served as their bed. Some nights, the ganja played bizarre games on Tingu’s mind, making it stretch, reach out and try to touch the things that preceded his arrival on the platform seven or eight years before. On such occasions, Usman loved to engage his friend in a perfunctory dialogue over his past.
Tingu, the 'thekbaaz', who was all of thirteen, liked his victims male and between thirty-five and forty. His partner Usman, the 'machine', a year older and three inches taller than Tingu, preferred the low-hanging fruit instead. Upper class women toddling down the footbridges dragging gargantuan shopping bags along. Harried salesmen pleading over cellphones, always too distant from the crowds they jostled in to recognise the dangers that lurked within them. And other such types. For him, even doddering old men, who would be lucky to just make it through the brutal Mumbai commute alive, were fair game.
Challenges never gave Usman a high. Like Tingu, he got his highs from the daily fix of ganja they smoked before going to bed every night. A tattered yellow polythene sheet spread underneath a staircase on Bandra station’s platform number two served as their bed. Some nights, the ganja played bizarre games on Tingu’s mind, making it stretch, reach out and try to touch the things that preceded his arrival on the platform seven or eight years before. On such occasions, Usman loved to engage his friend in a perfunctory dialogue over his past.
“Faces, places, names, shames...do you remember anything at all?” Usman would ask.
“I think I remember a face.”
Tingu would say, his eyes crinkled against the haze of milky smoke, his
head resting on a folded arm. “I mean, I don't remember the face. Only
that there was one before I came here.”
“Man or woman?”
“Baba, I think I called that face. Maybe abba. I'm not sure.”
At times, Tingu spoke of a hand,
a heavy one, crashing on his cheek, his lip splitting over his teeth
spilling liquid salt on his tongue. But he was quick with the
disclaimer that perhaps that wasn't baba's hand after all.
“And then?” Usman would ask.
“Nothing. Then it was here. On
this platform. Just here...” And the way he would utter those last few
words, Tingu would briefly sound like a stranger to Usman.
There had been a time, a year or
so earlier, when Usman had appeared a stranger to Tingu in a way that
had frightened him. Made him wonder if they would remain friends for
much longer. That was when Usman had begun to shoot up like a sycamore.
When his voice had started sounding like it were coming from the
bottom of the dry water tank atop the decrepit lavatory on the last
platform. When he had started looking and behaving so unlike the fellow
Tingu had known for six years that Tingu had even contemplated running
away, finding a new refuge, a new ustad, on the Central Line.
Or maybe even the Harbour Line. Change terrified Tingu almost as much
as darkness did. For the platform is a veritable carnival of ironies,
where things change every minute without anything changing at all.
Where there's scarcely a moment of darkness ever and yet it makes for a
tenebrous place to live on. Tingu stopped looking forward to their
night-time conversations. He worried most about sleeping next to Usman.
Although they ate the same unwholesome meals of vada-pav washed down with cutting chai
day in and day out, Usman had somehow, all at once, become a lot
stronger than Tingu. And Tingu knew what the bigger, stronger boys did
to the weaklings, even within their own gangs. He began to mention
Gafoor a lot more during their conversations.
Gafoor, their one-eyed ustad,
their handler, had been in the business longer than Tingu and Usman had
walked the earth. He was the man with the big picture. Every night,
while his boys enjoyed their ganja and chit-chat under the
staircase, Gafoor, squatting in his nearby shanty, used his one good
eye to count the takings from their two day shifts. Their profession had
fallen upon tough times. He had realised that a long time back.
Beating up the boys was no solution either. Real cash was getting real
scarce what with wallets and purses these days packed mockingly with
those shiny little plastic cards. Gafoor knew they could buy anything
in the world but that somehow they would never work if he tried using
them. It was something the owners did soon after realising they had
been robbed. Black magic perhaps. In fact, those cards were a
professional hazard. Only hard cash was their friend. Everything else,
trouble. “Make no mistake, everyone else is getting richer but us,”
Gafoor, pulling on a beedi wistfully, sometimes lectured his
boys. “Just that they're also getting more careful. Still, we must keep
our eyes peeled and our fingers oiled at all times.” What option do
the boys have? he asked himself sometimes. If you don't possess a
single skill to create anything of value for this world, the only way
to make a living is by taking what you never created.
~*~
The end of Tingu's anxieties
regarding his partner had come in a way that had made him laugh like
kids his age are supposed to. Soon after the aforementioned physical
changes manifested themselves in Usman, Tingu found him disappearing
between shifts. He used to be gone for hours and he never told Tingu
where he went. Sometimes he returned just before the afternoon shift to
find Tingu pacing the platform in a state of great agitation. In those
moments, Tingu would feel justified in punching his buddy in the side a
few times. Usman, who otherwise carried a famous temper, would never
retaliate; he’d only laugh and try to wiggle away, adding to Tingu's
suspicion that he was up to no good.
One day, just like that, Usman
asked Tingu to go along with him on his afternoon excursion. Tingu
frowned, feeling uncertain, a little scared even. Then, curiosity got
the better of him. They jumped on to a twelve-coach rake from Bandra,
hanging out the door all the way up to Dadar.
“Where are we going?” Tingu kept asking.
“You'll see,” Usman replied
every time, grinning. They took their time crossing over to Dadar East
where they boarded a Thane-bound local. Tingu broke a sweat; this was
alien territory.
“We get off at Sion,” Usman instructed him. “That's where the surprise lies.”
Tingu heard his stomach growl as
they waited on platform one at Sion. The aroma of fresh vada-pav being
prepared at a stall somewhere close by tantalized him. But Usman would
hear none of it. “Don't you budge, Tingu. If you miss this today, it
won't happen again until tomorrow,” he pleaded and Tingu was at once
intrigued. Shortly afterwards, the 11.35 am CST Slow arrived on the
station. Usman's eyes twinkled as the ladies compartment came to a halt
right in front of them. Out came a gang of Khalsa College girls,
giggling, bantering, asking for attention even while displaying a
studied indifference to everything around them.
“That one is mine,” Usman
declared, proudly pointing to a buxom Punjabi lass sporting a bosom
that heaved and fell with each step. She was dressed in a red halter
top, her skin-tight blue jeans slung miles below a cavernous navel.
“Just see how her hips jiggle as she walks. Nice, hmmm?”
The young women drifted towards
the exit, leaving behind them a wake of roiling fragrances, the gazes
of Usman, Tingu, and countless other men following them till the very
end. Usman turned to Tingu.
“Which one did you like?” he
asked, in the manner of a salesman asking his customer to pick a
cellphone model. There, perhaps for the first time in his life, Tingu
blushed.
“That one,” he said laughing, pointing with his chin towards no girl in particular.
“Which one?” asked Usman earnestly.
But it didn't matter. The only
thing that mattered was that Usman could be trusted. That Tingu could
sleep beside him under the staircase every night. That they could
continue to live their life of fast crime and illicit gratification
without personal suspicions or professional differences getting in the
way. But while Usman was no threat to Tingu, a similar threat had later
arrived from where it was least expected and Tingu had no choice but
to surrender before it.
At this point in the story, and
in view of what is going to happen next, it is worth mentioning that
the two little thieves actually followed a compromise formula as they
went about their business of relieving commuters of their cash: Tingu
selected their targets during the morning shift, Usman in the
afternoon.
~*~
Present Day. Vile Parle station: 10.45 am. The short paunchy man shuffling beside the chai-pakora stall on platform number three could have been on either side of forty. Shiny strips of oil-soaked scalp shone from underneath his frayed mattress of black-dyed hair. Dressed in a green half-sleeve shirt, darkened under the armpits, and beige corduroy trousers that shone brightly in the late morning sun, he was sweating buckets. Mopping a worry-lined brow every now and then with a soggy handkerchief. Constantly fidgeting with his cellphone without placing or receiving any calls. Mumbai does that to many. Look how he perks up each time the disembodied voice announces the trains over the public address system. How indifferent he seems to the hernia-like bulge in his trouser's front left pocket. That bulge has already caught the attention of our intrepid duo. Contrary to the widespread notion among honest folks, the back pockets are actually harder to pick than the front ones. “Remember, people with money can almost always feel it sliding up over their butts.” Gafoor had tutored his boys well. But the front pockets? “Laddoo hai,” grinned Usman as they inched closer to their target. Piece of cake!
Present Day. Vile Parle station: 10.45 am. The short paunchy man shuffling beside the chai-pakora stall on platform number three could have been on either side of forty. Shiny strips of oil-soaked scalp shone from underneath his frayed mattress of black-dyed hair. Dressed in a green half-sleeve shirt, darkened under the armpits, and beige corduroy trousers that shone brightly in the late morning sun, he was sweating buckets. Mopping a worry-lined brow every now and then with a soggy handkerchief. Constantly fidgeting with his cellphone without placing or receiving any calls. Mumbai does that to many. Look how he perks up each time the disembodied voice announces the trains over the public address system. How indifferent he seems to the hernia-like bulge in his trouser's front left pocket. That bulge has already caught the attention of our intrepid duo. Contrary to the widespread notion among honest folks, the back pockets are actually harder to pick than the front ones. “Remember, people with money can almost always feel it sliding up over their butts.” Gafoor had tutored his boys well. But the front pockets? “Laddoo hai,” grinned Usman as they inched closer to their target. Piece of cake!
The 10.51 am Borivali Slow
lumbered into the station loaded more than usual for its time. In the
beginning, the oily-haired man seemed intimidated by the crowds
billowing out of it. He glanced right, then left and hurried towards a
coach further ahead. Like all of Mumbai's suburban commuters, he too
wasn't immune to the delusion that the coach next to the nearest one
would somehow be less crowded. Watching Tingu and Usman stalking their
man, a polio-afflicted newspaper seller shook his head, blew his nose
into his hand and wiped the phlegm-covered fingers on the underside of
his handcart. Next to his newsstand sat a row of boot-polish boys
tuk-tukking on their shoe-rests with the wood of their brushes,
beckoning passers-by to come, shine their shoes. At the end of that
line of five sat Kallu. Until four months ago, he had been Tingu and
Usman’s partner in crime. Then, one afternoon, he was caught by a bunch
of commuters. Kallu had never walked upright after that day although
some would say he actually started walking upright only after the
thrashing. As Tingu hurried past him, Kallu whistled loudly. Tingu spun
around, his eyes armed with menace. Kallu laughed, made a loose fist
with his hand and punched the air three times. Boy, you're screwed
today! Tingu wagged his middle finger at him and spat. Then he followed
Usman into the second-class coach. The target had been acquired.
The insides of the coach were
engorged with the stench of a thousand perspiring men. At least four
were pressed together on each one of the sixty-four benches and a few
were standing too, fists curled loosely over the support brackets
hanging like handcuffs from the ceiling. Tingu disliked boarding these
trains. Standing in such close proximity to grown men made him acutely
conscious of his puny stature. Passengers often turned away from him,
not wanting to rub their bodies against that of an unwashed urchin. A
body covered by filthy undersized garments and reeking of tobacco, snot
and destitution. Sometimes, they even asked him to get off the train
at the next station. He had ‘Ticketless Traveler’ written all over him,
if not ‘Pickpocket.’ Still, for the sake of dhanda, he climbed aboard everyday. Twice. Except on Saturdays, their weekly off.
Their target was a regular; that
much was clear. He had positioned himself near the leading edge of the
door, just behind the outermost ring of bodies. A stance highly
recommended for stepping off the train without much trouble at the next
halt. The army of incoming passengers there would mount their attack
on the trailing half of the door, thwarting the efforts of anyone
trying to disembark from that end.
Usman found a gap just behind
Oily. Wordlessly, he showed Tingu four fingers. They had four minutes.
That’s a lot of time. Tingu slid through the other passengers like a
draught through a window-crack, positioning himself right next to
Usman. As a thekbaaz, distraction was Tingu’s stock-in-trade, a
skill that went largely underutilized inside local trains. The noise,
the relentless discomfort and the obligation to keep shifting one’s
coordinates all the time were sufficient to take people's minds far away
from their pockets. The nine-coach rake jerked forward, picking up
speed furiously, the wheels clanging over the rails with a vengeance,
the compartment rocking from side to side like a dinghy on choppy
waters.
There's a rule in pick-pocketing
– a rule Tingu always broke, as on this occasion. Never ever look your
target in the face. It takes the focus away from your goal. Worse, it
could even invite a reciprocal glance. And that could mean a few rough
weeks inside the lock-up if your victim decided to report the matter.
But now Tingu’s gaze has already
shifted to Oily's extruding pocket. How much could he be carrying?
Tingu wonders. Enough to meet their day's target, he hopes. Enough to
eventually convince Gafoor not to transfer them to the dangerous
Churchgate-Mahalaxmi segment where newcomers get beaten up and flung
onto the tracks by the entrenched gangs. Tingu shudders. Enough, he
prays, to pay the new constable Kartar Singh of the railway police his
hafta tonight so that he wouldn't have go with that dirty man inside
the empty goods trains in the desolate marshalling yard. How he
despised those goods trains filled with a thick glutinous darkness that
Kartar Singh playfully stabbed with his torchlight. “What's the fun if
I can't watch what I'm doing,” he would laugh. And Tingu didn't know
what he hated more: the fear of the darkness or the shame of the
torchlight.
Now watch. Usman's fingers are twitching in preparation for the performance, drumming an invisible tabla
in the air. He throws one last glance in Tingu's direction, the way a
paratrooper might at his buddy before jumping off for a sortie behind
enemy lines. Then, like a serpent striking its fear-frozen victim, two
lightening fingers stab the gaping mouth of Oily's trouser pocket. A
tug. A shake. And a warm chestnut-coloured wallet is scooped out from
within. It is teleported instantly from the fingers of the machine into
the waiting hands of the thekbaaz who tucks it under his shirt
between his trouser and his belly and turns around to face the
opposite door. The train is slowing down already. The yellow board
announcing “Andheri” in three different languages glides past. The
partners are out in a trice. They're weaving through the crowds now.
Darting up the staircase three steps at a time. On the footbridge,
panting, running like antelopes across five platforms. Down the last
staircase and into the parking lot on the east.
“Quick. Let me see it,” ordered
Usman once they were safely crouched between rows of two-wheelers.
Tingu fumbled around under his shirt and then leaned back grinning,
holding up the prize. Usman counted the notes, wetting his thumb on his
tongue, his mouth opening wider each time. Three thousand five hundred
and eleven rupees! They laughed out, loud and long, hysterically glad
at having survived yet another day on the platform. Then Usman walked
away with the cash, warning Tingu to throw away the empty wallet
quickly. He was already looking forward to the broken-toothed smile on
Gafoor’s face, the proud gleam in his good eye. And of course their
cut.
~*~
Tingu opened the wallet again,
searched the various pockets. It was his lucky day too. He found what
he always looked for in wallets after plundering them: a picture. It
was of a boy, not more than five or six years old. Had Usman been
there, he might have seen in his friend's eyes a fleeting forbidden
luxury: Hope. Tingu studied the face in the picture for a long moment
and then turned towards a mirror on a motorcycle. Almost immediately
his eyes turned professional once again. He snorted, shook his head and
tossed the wallet, along with the picture, into the nearest gutter.
Glossary:
Thekbaaz: Person who assists a pickpocket by diverting a victim's attention
Machine: The person who actually picks the pocket
Ganja: Cannabis or marijuana
Ustad: Trainer or handler
Vada-pav: Cheap Indian fast food, very popular in Mumbai; consists of a deep-fried potato mash patty (batata vada) served in a salted bun (pav) with savory condiments
Beedi: Thin Indian cigarette made of tobacco and wrapped in a tendu leaf
Chai: Tea
Pakora: An Indian fried snack made from spinach, soft cheese or onion
Laddoo: Popular Indian sweet made of flour and other ingredients formed into balls that are dipped in sugar syrup
Dhanda: Colloquial for business
Keeda: Colloquial for infection
Hafta: Colloquial for protection money
Tabla: Indian percussion instrument similar to a drum
ShortStory 2009 FeaturedWriter Sneha Subramanian Kanta
THE MARRIAGE
Morning announced itself through
the perching of birds on the branches of trees. It had been 6 a.m.
now and I was getting delayed to reach the airport. I woke up rather
reluctantly out of my bed and went to the basin. I looked at my face in
the mirror which was morose. Today was supposed to be the best day of
my life. I was to get married and get the status of someone’s wife.
Only in this case, it was a runaway court marriage.
Preparations for this day had
been made since many months. Today was the best day when I could sneak
out of the house for a day. I was supposed to be wearing a sari as
decided by myself and Shashank. Bangles shone in my wrists and flowers
adorned my hair. I stood in a red saree in front of the mirror. When I
now look back, I see a young, restless, bright mind standing haplessly
looking at herself.
Somehow, all this hype
surrounding my marriage did not get to me at all. When I left the
house, I had a thousand odd things running in my mind. I kept thinking
all about the possible future, about my life, the “new house” I was
supposed to “adjust” into, as I was told by my father in-law.
I was just eighteen then, and
didn’t know much about the intricacies that life held. All that
grappled my mind was thoughts of running away from my house and to
escape the harmful clutches of my step mother.
I reached the airport and in a
flurry kept passing by each counter and finally reached mine. Whatever
was happening didn’t really seep through my mind. There are so many
instances in life, where, you don’t feel what actually happens to you. This was perhaps one of those.
As I boarded the flight to
Delhi, I anxiously looked outside the aircraft. Something within me
said that I should get up and run away. The very thought of me having
to be in an entirely different set up haunted me.
Two hours flit by and I reached
Delhi. I hurriedly walked outside the airport and saw Shashank standing
there. He was his usual self, tall, with a lanky frame. For a minute,
all this hoopla surrounding the aura of my “marriage” dispersed into me
looking into his eyes. He escorted me out of the airport and I was
bought to his house. He had most of his family members and I had none
but him. I thought he understood this fact somewhere down the line,
fully self-conscious of the fact of my love for him.
Finally, five of his family
members and we were taken to the court of law. There, the final seal on
our marriage had been put. I feel none, the excitement or the
happiness a bride should feel. But I do admit, my heart leapt up to
Shashak on seeing him so happy.
I was brought to his house and everyone greeted me with a smile. Elaborate meals were cooked and people had surrounded the house as honeybees surround the honeycomb. Amongst all this chatter, I felt completely left out. “Trapped,” was it? Many a times, in so many weddings I realize the bride and the groom remain objects. Objects to be looked at and then people estimate the “approximate” price of the party given. Love somewhere down the line sneaks away out of this circle of fake enthusiasm.
I’d been terrible all day with
the hectic court procedures and traveling. After people left, I was
left in my own element in a room. I was told by my mother-in-law that
Shashak would come to the room later.
And this was the worse thing to
do me thought- leave a young, sad girl all alone on the night of her
wedding. The night when she’d meet her husband and tell him how much
she loves him, the expression in the eye which expresses how a thousand
moons give her solace when she hugs the man she loves. I’d felt none
of this, all I could feel was loneliness. My heart ached and my mind
moved from one image to another. I could see, somewhere in Chennai, my
step mother filing for a police case for me missing. I could see the
image of the neighboring children I used to play with and sing songs; I
could feel the anger of my step mother, the anxiety of the children.
Surprisingly, I couldn’t feel any joy that a newly wed bride is
supposed to feel.
I felt like running out of the
room, removing all the unnecessary jewellery that I’d wore and go and
melt in Shashank’s arm. I felt like crying like a child to him,
laughing like a lover to him, and loving him as a wife would yearn to.
But I could do neither. It was
night, about 2 a.m. I think. I heard some crackling sound and woke up. I
saw Shashank right there, wanting to drink some water. He saw me open
my eyes and took me in his arms. For some reason, I’d wanted to cry and
tell him how much I loved him. But, something prevented me from doing
so. Why can’t I cry and tell him how I felt, I don’t fathom.
Night passed and I was unable to speak anything. He made love to me, and I felt an emotion taking me higher than where I was.
But, sex is only a temporary relief.
That night clouds had gathered
and I lay awake in a now fast asleep Shashank’s arms. I quietly go up
and went outside the verandah. I felt the sky curling to form a
ferocious array of clouds. I stood there, my eyelids battling the drops
of rain. It was now that I’d started crying too.
Morning again arrived, and a lot
had changed within a day. My identity had changed, and so did my life.
Shashank went to office as usual and I was kept in the house the
entire day. This episode kept repeating itself day-after-day.
Months passed and I’d started
feeling the need to do something. I’d been cooking in the house and
looking after Shashank’s family. He did the jig that a dutiful husband
is supposed to, but I realized I looked for much more.
Shashank kept coming late to the
house and the tantrums of my mother-in-law increased. I was feeling
like a bird which had been locked up in a cage, which looks golden from
the outside, but is as hollow as any other cage. A cage afterall, is a
cage.
One day, as I was ironing
Shashank’s shirt, I found a bill. It read as a bill given by a lingerie
shop, and I’d been in a state of horror. If there was something that
he had to give me, it should have been given by now, and I have never
known any instance when Shashank had bought me a gift.
That night, I felt like a robber doing this, but I checked his phone and noticed many short messages he’d sent that read-,
“She is a dutiful wife. She
takes care of my house and parents. But I do love you. Don’t worry,
even if I wouldn’t be able to marry you, I’d love you and only you. Love
you my princess.”
I’d realize the loops in our marriage and I also could now see the futility of being into a relationship when all is lost.
I’d discovered the path I wanted
to now tread on. I confronted Shashank that night and asked him about
what’s going on in his life.
“What nonsense are you talking? Do you realize,” he screamed.
“This isn’t nonsense Shashank. It’s about our life,” I explained.
“Look, Priya (this was the first
time someone actually calls me by my name, I thought) all you are
reading is not true. Ok , tell me, even if it is true , what can you
do. Where will you go? Can’t we live with it,” he asked.
“Live with it? Live with what
Shashank? This life, which is futile and which binds us to a
relationship we’ve long lost?” I thundered back.
“Fine, go wherever you want to. I won’t stop you. But do realize, you have no where to go,” he told me.
By this time, I almost had tears
in my eyes. I took a decision in my mind that this is over today.
There isn’t more I can bear.
My walking had led me to the
railway station and I’d enough money to board a train to Allahabad. I
waited in the waiting room of the train department. There, I felt like
contemplating suicide, but something within me stopped myself.
It was again 6 a.m. of the next
day and I stood near the steps of a temple All I could see is flashes
of little lightning across the still black clouds, which looked like
the same night. Lightning looked as though it’d would fall on me.
As I tried breaking this day that awaits me peace, I saw a priest doing the funeral of a old woman. She had many other relatives of hers who were crying. Somewhere, something deep inside me cried too.
After about an hour, I heard the preist say,
“Shantam. Shantam. Shantam.”
ShortStory 2009 FeaturedWriter Shaunak Bangale
THE WORLD IS ROUND!
Prologue-
Bang!! The World was shaking...
People living near the sea-shores from every part of the earth were
stunned by the ever-biggest earthquake… It was different from other
earthquakes in the sense it only happened near sea-shores. It lasted
just for few moments, but the intensity was just stunning. It caused
the coastal people to re-think their entire lives. Though it had caused
the heartbeats to run faster, it had made a favour by not taking
heartbeats away from people.
But Odona had something
different in her mind. She was thinking about this event as more than a
mere earthquake. Since she saw the crystal ball turning black after
the earthquake was over, her concern for the future of the world was
obvious. She had never seen it turning black in last 30 years. Her
mother had gifted it to her before dying. Her last words were punching
Odona’s mind again and again, “Just take care of the crystal ball. If
it turns black, it means something bad is going to happen in near
future.“ She was confused because it had turned black after the
earthquake. So she had become more. To investigate, she asked her son.
Nick to get a team of 5 world class scientists from different continents to think upon it who could understand the present problem and its consequences. Nick made no delay in following up mother’s order, rather advice.. Nick was the lead scientist in path-breaking Geological Research Institute (GRI) located near the west coast of south America. Next day, he was ready with the talented team of geo-scientists; two of them were the physics Nobel Prize winners. Odona welcomed all of them and came to the point without making any further late. She asked openly, “All of you know the problem world is facing today.”
Veda, another young scientist interrupted her, “yes, it’s the earthquake and the people living on sea-shores have no option except migrating.”Xander spoke, “It was a mystery that such a powerful earthquake didn’t take any lives. We are lucky.”
Odona listened to them quietly and said,” Yes, you right because the real problem starts now.” “How?”Mendis questioned. Odona started narrating the story.
25 years ago:
Odona was living a happy life with her husband Lenbo who was the chief scientist at GRI. That was the time the world was running out of coal and research was going on to find out the solution to the problem. One day Lenbo got an idea. He thought, “Why shouldn’t we try to find it on any other planet?” He spent around 10 years in finding any planet with the coal content. Lenbo was very intelligent and had very strong belief in whatever he did. His efforts were not wasted. He found out that there exists one such planet named CORUS in a star system which was 3 light years far from the earth.
Previously he had created the space ship which was able to travel at a speed 1/5th of light. So it would take 15 years just to reach the planet and another 15 years to come back. So going there to bring coal was not the practical solution of the problem. Lenbo contacted the planet through his universal telepathic machine. He could find out that there are people who are made of coal and the whole planet is full of coal content. They are called kryobuts. Their average life span was 300 years. Lenbo was amazed.
After further coded conversation Lenbo could find out that they need salty sand every 30 years to expand their life span. But amount of salty sand was insufficient to sustain the increasing population on the planet. Kryobuts were so advanced that they had space ships which can travel at the speed of the light. So they could reach earth within 3 years of journey. So calling them to earth was only the way to get the coal. Lenbo was wise enough to make the deal only for 1 year. Kryobuts also accepted the deal happily. It was decided that they will live on earth for 1 year to use salty sand and provide coal to the earth.
So the things happened as agreed. Men on earth were happy to get more than enough coal. Kryobuts were enjoying their happiest life. They had started exploring the world. The different lands, weathers and cultures fascinated them. They were more powerful than men. So, they started dominating over men and created living hell for humanity. They refused to go back to Corus and decided to live on earth forever. People all over started blaming Lenbo and insisted he be held accountable.
While thinking for different options, Lenbo got a solution. He found that though they are powerful they are not as intelligent as men. So he felt he could use a Brain Hold Sensor to control their minds and make them enter a cave which was on the west coast of south America, He lured them with high quality sand there on the sea shore which was at the other end of the cave. The naïve kryobuts played into his hands, and Lenbo’s brain hold sensor had such effect on them that entered the cave without much opposition. When he could manage all of them to enter the cave, only thing remaining was to close the cave. Their master had found out that the cave is closed at the other end and they were cheated and locked. As he was smarter than his colleagues his mind wasn’t much affected by the Lenbo’s controls. But he was also under Lenbo’s will. Lenbo called Odona to close the big cave with the magical power she had got from her mother.
But while Odona did it, master tried to come out. Suddenly, he caught Lenbo and dragged him into the cave. Odona was helpless as she only knew how to close the cave and not to open it.
Meanwhile her mother also died.
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And Odona cried in memories of her husband and her mother.
“So how does it relate to the present situation? I mean what can we do now?”, asked Calinden, impatiently.
Odona continued,”As my mother told the cave can get a crack if any big thing like earthquake happens in the area. I strongly believe that Kryobuts can come out of the cave through the crack. So task for you is to save Lenbo and simultaneously control the kryobuts using the brain hold sensor technique. So first you will have to analyse the old machine which is outdated now and create a new machine for the present. Just be alert. Any mistake will lead to danger.”
Odona’s wasn’t wrong. Soon they
heard the news that nearby village was attacked by kryobuts. Odona
herself with Nick went to the village to see the situation. He found
out that there was one kryobut among them named Corag who was helping
people rather than troubling them. He was allowing the weaponless
people to escape. He wanted to fight with only the people who were
equivalent to him. He was more powerful than his colleagues and so
dominated over them. But another kryobut, Imperious always tried to kill
people mercilessly.
So Corag always contradicted
Imperious. But Imperious had a team of 10 other kryobuts. Meanwhile
there was an announcement made by the governments. According to the
news, ‘The recent earthquake has caused the rock layers under sea to
displace which may be harmful. So the people near the sea shores are
requested to move towards the inner part of the respective countries.’
Nick was able to create the brain hold sensor machine but kryobuts now knew how to counter-attack. Master was inside the cave in the form of a black hole.
Nick was able to create the brain hold sensor machine but kryobuts now knew how to counter-attack. Master was inside the cave in the form of a black hole.
One day, Imperious succeeded in
kidnapping Odona and the 5 scientists. He took them to master. Master
was draining Odona’s magical power and helpless scientists’ knowledge.
Corag could no longer bear this injustice. He attacked the master. So
master changed his target and attacked Corag. As soon as he attacked
Corag, Corag got converted into Lenbo. 14 years back, master had
transformed Lenbo into a kryobut. Master acquired his brain hold sensor
technique and used it against Lenbo. But master didn’t want to kill
Lenbo because he was the only source of information for them. He
changed Lenbo so that other kryobuts could not recognize him and didn’t
kill him. He also named him Corag. He always had an eye on Corag’s
activities.
He also knew one day this is
going to happen. Odona saw Corag getting converted into Lenbo and she
didn’t know how to express these mixed feelings. Nick was also amazed
by seeing his father in such condition. Lenbo was still trying to fight
back but in vain as he was a normal human being now.
Just then, Veda got an alert from his another scientist, “We have found that there are great chances of Tsunami to happen on the sea-shores and nearby regions will be destroyed completely. You need to escape from there immediately.” Veda whispered this to Lenbo and Nick.
Just then, Veda got an alert from his another scientist, “We have found that there are great chances of Tsunami to happen on the sea-shores and nearby regions will be destroyed completely. You need to escape from there immediately.” Veda whispered this to Lenbo and Nick.
Odona, Lenbo, Nick along with
rest of the scientist escaped the place somehow. Master underestimated
them thinking they were accepting the defeat. Just as they left, a huge
Tsunami came and engulfed the entire place.
Before they could even bat an
eyelid, the tsunami swept them all off to their collective doom. As
they saw the ruin it left in its wake… the very ruin because of which
they survived, Odona remarked, ”As you sow so shall you reap. We made a
mistake by calling kryobuts on earth and they turned against us all.
Nature had to intervene against the kryobut menace and solved it by
Tsunami. Whoever creates the problem has to find the solution. But
whatever happens, know one thing –
You are not God to play dice with this world…”
You are not God to play dice with this world…”
ShortStory 2009 Longlist Pesi Padshah
Spare The Rod ?
Father Beech was a bull of a
man who, the story goes, could lift, over his head, an average size
seventh standard schoolboy, purely with the strength of his mighty
right arm. Nobody that I know, had actually seen him do it, but legend
has it that he could roll up his sleeve and perform the feat anytime,
and none among us whom he taught English Language, English Literature,
and Scripture, at St. Mary’s school in Bombay, long, long ago, in the
nineteen-forties, ever doubted it.
I enjoyed English Language as a
subject, although I’d frequently get into a tangle over grammar.
However I had a powerful imagination and a certain facility with words,
which managed to see me through examinations. English Literature
though, was another matter altogether. It included large amounts of
Shakespeare, most of which I found beyond my comprehension and which, at
exam time, diluted the marks earned from my answers on the works of
other authors. The result being, I seldom passed an examination in that
subject. Scripture was optional, but I chose to study it in spite of
the boredom it induced in me, since the alternative was Hindi, and one
look at the Devanagiri script froze the blood in my veins, although I
was quite happy with the language as it was spoken.
On reflection, it is understandable that my sort of
student would run foul of a teacher with Fr. Beech’s temperament, and
what made life painfully difficult for me, was that the padre with the
strong right arm, had absolutely no hesitation in supplementing his
teaching skills with frequent use of a malacca cane.
The first time Fr. Beech had cause to discipline me, was
in Scripture class when I was asked to narrate one of St. Paul’s
journeys in the New Testament. I naively admitted I had forgotten to
learn it, whereupon the cleric smilingly told me that, for the next
lesson, not only was I to have a fairly good idea of what St. Paul had
got up to on his travels, but I was to know the text by heart. Came the
day, and I glanced through the chapter in the ten minute recess before
the Scripture period. When asked to say my piece, I started off in
grand style, and had Fr. Beech nodding approvingly at the part where a
mysterious voice speaks to St. Paul, who was also called Saul, saying:
“Saul, Saul, why persecutest thou me?” After that, I ran out of facts
but soldiered on with my version of the narrative, keeping a straight
face and using what I thought were genuine biblical phrases and
expressions such as “Thou shalt not sin”, “Thus it came to pass”, and
”Forgive us Father for we know not what we do”. Just when I felt I had
the situation well under control, Fr. Beech raised both clenched fists
above his head, and cried “Enough! Come to my room directly after
school.”
At the appointed time, I
presented myself, looking sheepish and dejected, as I felt was expected
of me. “Ah, there you are”, the padre greeted me genially. “Come right
in”. Smiling, he produced an evil looking switch from a book rack on
the wall, and pointing, first at my hands, and then at the seat of my
trousers, offered me the choice of where I wished to be thrashed.
Without a second thought, I held out my hands. For a lad of my age, my
hands were huge. A medical student, after staring at them, once
pronounced me ‘acromegalic’. I thought he was being rude until I
consulted the dictionary. Then I felt he was probably right.
The switch came whistling down.
As it smote my palm, my fingers closed over it, and I tugged gently. My
tormentor wasn’t expecting that and, to his surprise, found himself
empty-handed, with me pointing the cane at his midriff. Rather like a
swordsman disarming his opponent and having him at his mercy. I held
the pose long enough to convey the idea, before restoring the switch to
its owner. After that display, I felt I had earned the right to make a
dignified ---- if not triumphant ---- exit, with my head held high. I
was mistaken. I found myself being seized by the neck and doubled over.
There followed six excruciatingly painful strokes of the cane, upon my
rump.
In the years following that
encounter with the disciplinarian Beech, and leading up to the school
leaving examination, I was chastised several times by the padre, and
never once was I allowed to take it on my hands. I thought familiarity
with the punishment would lead, if not to outright contempt for it, to
at least a partial numbing of the nerves under the seat of my pants.
Neither happened. I considered myself lucky if I could space out the
canings so as to be fully recovered from one painful episode, before
running into the next.
Through trial and error, I found
that the most effective way to achieve this, was to do my homework,
and study diligently. It probably also accounted for my passing the
final Senior Cambridge examination, albeit by the skin of my teeth,
when all around me, expected me to fail. As it happened, I did fail in
history and in geography, and since both subjects belonged to a
‘group’, I should, by rights, have failed the entire exam. What wrought
the miracle of my getting through, was the fact that I managed to
secure five ‘credits’. Three of them came from Fr. Beech’s subjects ;
another, by way of a fluke, in mathematics ; and finally one in French,
in which I received home tuition from my mother who, like Fr. Beech,
was a disciplinarian, and a great believer in strong arm methods.
I remain passionately opposed
to the use of violence in disciplining schoolchildren. At the same
time, my list of academic achievements is so woefully short, that I
treasure my Senior Cambridge certificate which I know I would never
have obtained, had I not been painfully coerced into studying. It
leaves me undecided whether I am glad or sorry I was made to suffer in
school. Under the circumstances, all I am prepared to admit to is :
“Sweet are the uses of adversity- sometimes."
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